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“Lillies of the Field”


The economy continues to be a source of frustration for me as it pertains to my job search.  Since my layoff in October I’ve been sending out resumes only for them to disappear into an virtual abyss.  I am baffled at my inability to even snag temporary work as a fallback.

This whole experience makes me feel as if I’m fresh out of college. It’s a blow to the ego to submit a plethora of resumes only to receive little to no response, regardless of my job experience.   I do realize that in this economy there’s a high ratio of applicants to the number of available jobs, and gone are the days of making personal contact or sending resumes by snail mail.  Everything, and I mean everything, is electronic.

Then there is that mounting tension I feel while watching my bank account shrink even further and waiting impatiently for unemployment payments to show up.

Earlier last week, when I was at the height of my frustration, I received a text from a friend who sent me a scripture starting at Luke 12:22.  It was certainly a word in due season:

22 That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life – whether you have enough food to eat or enough clothes to wear.
23 For life is more than food, and your body is more than clothing.
24 Look at the ravens. They don’t plant nor harvest nor store food in barns, for God feeds them. And you are far more valuable to Him than any birds!
25 Can all of your worries add a single moment to your life?
26 And if worry can’t accomplish a little thing like that, what’s the use of worrying over bigger things?
27 Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow, they neither toil nor spin, and yet I say to you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

This calmed my Spirit and I do realize in many ways as I look back that God has been keeping me all this time and will continue to do so.  It’s tough to wait for things to come to fruition, however what’s more important is what you do while you wait.   For me it’s to continue to be prayerful and positive and continue to trust God, always.



“Still” – A Spiritual Journey

About a month and half ago I lost my job where I worked at the same company for about twelve years.  Such is the nature of corporate life, right?  Oddly enough I’m not bitter about it.  After the initial shock, there was a feeling of relief.   My time was long overdue.

Finding the right job, or should I say career, is a daunting task.  It’s sobering to know that in this economy, the average search time to find something permanent is approximately a year.   Would I ever be able to find something that I like?   Would I be able to find something comparable to my salary from my previous position?  What are the next steps?

I shared these thoughts with a coworker the day I was let go, and my coworker said, “Ani, maybe God wants you to be still.”

She was right, however it’s a struggle.   It’s hard to convince your practical side to be still as it’s launching into survival mode.  My severance pay isn’t going to last forever, and it’s possible that I’m going to be job hunting for a long while.

This has not stopped God from speaking through scripture, random Facebook quotes, or even a song on the radio.  The overall theme was the same, “Be still.”

So I am practicing being “still,” by applying my drawing skills.  As many artists will tell you, the creative process can be a very spiritual one and I’ve had times where I received some wonderful insight from God just by making art.

I drew two sketches.  The first one drawn in watercolor crayon on cold pressed paper depicts a woman sitting down cross-legged in silent meditation.  This is funny because I accidentally drew her right foot backwards!  Her hair is straighter  so it looks like it’s standing straight on end.


A couple of weeks later, I drew a close-up of the face in colored pencil in my sketch book.  In this sketch I drew an afro with a gray streak in the middle.  The afro reminds me of a halo and will probably be a focal point in the final rendering.  The background will be blue, the same color as the previous sketch, which the color of the Holy Spirit. I’ve also heard that on some psychic level a blue aura means wisdom.


So we’ll see how this all pans out. I’m going to complete the final work in chalk pastels.  Pray that I find some insight into my circumstances as I work through this piece!

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