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“Still” – A Spiritual Journey

About a month and half ago I lost my job where I worked at the same company for about twelve years.  Such is the nature of corporate life, right?  Oddly enough I’m not bitter about it.  After the initial shock, there was a feeling of relief.   My time was long overdue.

Finding the right job, or should I say career, is a daunting task.  It’s sobering to know that in this economy, the average search time to find something permanent is approximately a year.   Would I ever be able to find something that I like?   Would I be able to find something comparable to my salary from my previous position?  What are the next steps?

I shared these thoughts with a coworker the day I was let go, and my coworker said, “Ani, maybe God wants you to be still.”

She was right, however it’s a struggle.   It’s hard to convince your practical side to be still as it’s launching into survival mode.  My severance pay isn’t going to last forever, and it’s possible that I’m going to be job hunting for a long while.

This has not stopped God from speaking through scripture, random Facebook quotes, or even a song on the radio.  The overall theme was the same, “Be still.”

So I am practicing being “still,” by applying my drawing skills.  As many artists will tell you, the creative process can be a very spiritual one and I’ve had times where I received some wonderful insight from God just by making art.

I drew two sketches.  The first one drawn in watercolor crayon on cold pressed paper depicts a woman sitting down cross-legged in silent meditation.  This is funny because I accidentally drew her right foot backwards!  Her hair is straighter  so it looks like it’s standing straight on end.


A couple of weeks later, I drew a close-up of the face in colored pencil in my sketch book.  In this sketch I drew an afro with a gray streak in the middle.  The afro reminds me of a halo and will probably be a focal point in the final rendering.  The background will be blue, the same color as the previous sketch, which the color of the Holy Spirit. I’ve also heard that on some psychic level a blue aura means wisdom.


So we’ll see how this all pans out. I’m going to complete the final work in chalk pastels.  Pray that I find some insight into my circumstances as I work through this piece!


“Angry Kitty”

Cats are amazing creatures are they not?  I have one and contrary to popular belief they have incredible personalities.  If God created dog as man’s best friend, defining what it means to show unconditional love, then surely the intention behind creating a cat must be, “You alright but you ain’t all THAT.”

Cats will impose themselves on you, walk all over your computer keyboard while you are typing (okay just now that happened), swat at your legs as you walk by, lay on the stairs in front of you as you are attempting to go down them, tear your toilet paper, boots, socks, couch, and drapes to shreds. Basically they are jerks. Hard to believe they were actually worshiped like gods during ancient times.  Can you imagine crowds of people genuflecting in front of an aloof creature that sat there licking its nether regions?

I am amazed at cats’ physical capabilities including the ability to jump up several feet in the air from a sitting position. I I also find it most remarkable that when provoked, they can swell up to the size of the state of New Jersey.

The latter was my inspiration behind “Angry Kitty.” I wanted to capture that stiff, defensive body posture with the hair standing straight up and running down the center of its back, and the skinny tail swelling up at a moment’s notice.

My initial sketch looked like this.    It was too contrived.  I had referenced a photograph of an angry cat but my interpretation was too literal.  The posture didn’t look intense enough or angry enough.

Instead of trying to work with what I already sketched, I just took the eraser and started over.  As a result, I created a looser sketch where this time the cat looked larger, more imposing, and took up a lot more canvas space.

Overall I’m thrilled with the painting. It was one of those pieces where it turned out to be pretty close to what I wanted and that’s always exciting.  Once I finished it, I held it up to my cat and said, “Look at what I did.”  Shock to no one, my cat didn’t give a crap about it one way or the other.

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