Julia Cameron, the author of The Artist’s Way, was right. There will be times when you will make ugly art. Yesterday was one of those days and I have to accept it.
I was working in a medium that I hadn’t dabbled in since about a year and half ago – acrylics. My latest piece was “Angry Kitty” back in 2012 and that turned out fairly well, mostly because the subject matter wasn’t too complicated.
It was this past Saturday when I felt the need to paint “Ninja” or “Assassin ( actually I don’t know what to really call the thing).” The following day was Palm Sunday and one would think that I would have wanted to do something more contemplative.
I made a rough drawing in my sketch book nearly two years ago. I created three throwing stars flying in the air towards their target. I painted a trial throwing star on a smaller canvas for practice but never got around to doing the final work because I wasn’t comfortable with executing it.
Saturday, I drew the throwing stars on canvas and then painted the background.
Sunday, I tinted the white to give a light gray or dirty white base and then I applied white streaks as a second layer for some added texture.
It wasn’t until I started working on the stars that my problems began. I struggled with using the brushes to create a sense of motion. The swirls around the stars were muddy and the black streaks trailing the stars were just too big. My lack of skill as an acrylic painter became quite obvious.
Creating ugly art is one of those things that will happen at some point in any artist’s life. It’s a letdown considering the amount of the time one puts into their work, and in my case it happened to be a good bit of the day yesterday. I had such high hopes. Hindsight, I should have stopped right before painting the stars to give myself more time to think about my technique, but I was feeling pretty confident.
On the upside, making ugly art is a learning experience. Once I screwed up and was unable to find a resolution, I just went into “the heck with it” mode and just started playing with it. I discovered that there were some things that worked that could be applied to future works and other things that didn’t.
I’m debating on whether or not to fix this hot mess. I mean why miss an opportunity to REALLY jack it up further? Most likely I will just scrap it and start over. That wouldn’t be the first time I’ve done something like this and thanks to the learning curve, I can probably finish it in less time. Well, shoot, maybe I just solved my own problem right there! Just start over. It’s okay. It’s what the creative process is about.